<不必相見>
我未死, 起碼今日仲未.
其實, 我過去個星期, 病到成隻狗咁. 病到我以為自己就快要死 – 儘管那只是普通的發燒感冒腸胃炎. 每日都訓係床度, 個頭好痛, 又諗唔到乜野正經野, 再加以為自己會死 – 儘管如果因為發燒而死, 個人認為太無謂, 於是乎竟然諗起自己既喪禮來.
早前已經說過, 自己理想的喪禮是怎樣的. 今次係床上再諗, 係諗下各人見到我既時候會講d 乜.
(1) 我還想到有些人會認識我幾十年, 但從來沒有見過我真身. 這次係喪禮見到, 便說 : 呀, 原來呢條粉腸就是史弟, 抵佢死/可惜他已經死了. 還有些人大家可能在網絡上溝通多年, 要到某某的喪禮才有機會一聚 : 呢條友就係 x x x? 唉… 一直以為佢好靚仔…
情形就像大魚奇緣裏面既主角, 在父親喪禮上看到各個傳奇人物, 那感覺既興奮又難過. 大家聚首一堂, 猜下枚, 食下煙, 過黎同我影下相, 幾過癮. 法事過後, 離開暢行道, 登上 10 號小巴, 一切隨風而去, 天空仍然是藍色. 當然, 那個時候, 我什么都不知道了.
我想, 大概有些人, 不必見. 不見反而有著憧憬 (原來佢咁矮咁醜咁高咁靚咁有錢咁串…), 我更欣賞那種君子之交淡如水的關係. 見了, 關係亦會變得複雜. 是好是壞, 我不知道. 但我較為欣賞現在的交往方式 – 大家既然是路人甲乙丙的關係, 就繼續當其路人甲乙丙好了. 再者見了, 就未必可以造到群英聚喪禮既效果.
(2) 然後我想到一d 好耐無見既朋友. 包括小學時既初戀情人, 大學時一直得不到的女同學, 碩士時的日本籍友人… 等等. 就算我死了, 他們大概也不會知道, 也不太關心吧.
(3) 我也想到親人和女友 (連佢地都諗埋, 你可以想像我病左幾耐). 這時候 now 的仆街 8 號台 (即播 “獨家試愛” 的 trailer 台, 現改為 118), 正播放著 變種特工 (x-men) 第三集既片段. 女角痛苦地叫狼人 :
Kill me~
沒有什么比叫自己最親的人殺死自己更痛苦. 如果一個人認真地叫你殺左佢, 佢所面對既困難真係好高大, 所需要的勇氣比臭氧層更厚. 裏面涉及的情感也很複雜, 我不知道怎樣可以有系統地說出來. 對, 我是支持安樂死的. 要求親人代為向醫生轉達了結生命的勇氣, 並是超出道德和法律的範疇.
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<NBA Playoffs>
My earlier predictions on the Eastern Conference is partially correct and on the Western Conference, entirely incorrect.
Anyway, this is the most insane and interesting NBA Playoffs I have ever watched :
- Two straight 7-game series for my most favourite run-and-gun team ever;
- Two great come-back-from-verge-of-elimination series (Piston-Cavs; Suns-Lakers);
- Large pool of talents with great variety of team plays (Team spirit of Piston; the unstoppable Wade and L.James; the guns of 333333~~~ Suns; The bench of Mavs could be starting 5 in another lottery team; the Yoga-like Ginobili reminds me of master Kamal)
- Early elmination of my hatest team (Spurs and Lakers).
- Huge mistakes by great players (Ginobili in Game 7 versus Mavs, see below; Nash in Game 4 versus Lakers with two turnovers).
- Blow-outs with great offensive moves (Game 1 of Piston-Cavs; Game 7 of two Suns series)
FUNNY :
1. Look at Chris Kaman of Clippers in Game 7 versus Suns. EVERY sinlge play he complains to the officials. Yea, EVERY. What is he doing? With 2 seconds – by the time Kaman could only raise his hands and open his month trying to speak – Marion have an AND1 play on the other side of the court. You keep talking you are committing suicide. No wonder Mike (coach of Clippers) puts him on the floor for only 20 minutes, despite Kaman is 7 foot 1 and the average of Suns is something like 5 foot 7.
2. With less than 30seconds your team leads by 3 after your 3-pointer, now the top scoer of the opposite team drives down the lane, what will you do? I have no idea what Ginobili has in his mind when he fouls Nowitzki for an AND1 play to give Mavs the tie at 104. Shouldn’t you let him go? Shouldn’t Ginobili know Nowitzki is 7-foot? What is he thinking? What does Greg (coach of Spurs) feel? With almost no bench scoring (oh yea, almost all Mavs in PF or C foul out), does Ginobili ever remember that it is no different from self-killing for Spurs to play over-time, after Duncan playing almost every mintue of the game? This is the greatest mistake I have seen in playoffs of NBA in the last decade.
Before that, in the Game 3/4 (i forget) 1994 NBA finals (Jordan’s Bulls versus Barkley’s Suns), a Bulls (again forget the name) passed directly to Barkley for a layup right under the basket during over-time, right after a basket by Suns. I saw Jordan and Phil Jackson have heart attack after that.
3. I totally understand from this year’s playoff that a team with 3 major scorers is not enough to bring you to conference finals. Spurs (Parker, Duncan, Ginobili) can’t, Nets (Kidd, Carter, Jefferson) can’t, Wizards (Butler, Jamison, Arenas) can’t. Not to mention Lakers, Clippers, Nuggets…. Of course if you have Wade or James you can stay a little bit longer…
To win you must have 5 scorers… yea… FIVE, at least 13-15 points per game in a reliable manner. All 7 players of Suns score at least 10 in Game 7, the bench of Mavs is the best I have ever seen (could be compared with the 80s Celtics), the Piston’s starting five can give you 15-20 per game.
If my observation is correct, Miami heat will be eliminated by Pistons soon… in about 7 games…
And Mavs versus Suns… I am rather reluctant to predict as both sides have great starting lineup and bench, the coaches are also skillful. Remember Kurt Thomas might back for the Suns….. Mavs 4:3, with no more than 3 games decided by above 10 points.
Nowitzki and Nash………………………………………….
